Glory be to God-Almighty.
I have never written out my testimony for anyone to read before but it is important to let people know what God has done for me.
Before God graciously blessed me with His undeserving Grace, I was a sinner. Sin ruled my life and I thought that I could find God everywhere else than the place He would be. I thought I could find Him by being a Buddhist, by being Jewish, by turning to Spirituality. But what God showed me was that the only way I could find Him and know Him and form a relationship with Him, was through Christ.
For a period of my life, I didn't want to find God or know Him. I enjoyed the world and being distant from Him. I enjoyed how being depressed made me feel, I enjoyed how the foolish talk of spirituality made me feel, and I enjoyed sin.
In times when I was supposed to depend on Him most, I turned to evil. In Matthew 6:22 (CEV), Christ says, "Your eyes are a window for your body. When they are good, you have all the light you need. But when your eyes are bad, everything is dark. If the light inside you is dark, you surely are in the dark." Before God's glorious Grace shone upon me, my eyes were bad and everything was dark. And I did nothing to make them light, instead I made them darker. I consumed filth, and allowed myself to see and hear filth. But God's love is good.
After I turned 21 was when I was saved. Before this however, I had started attending a local Church with my family. I remember when my Mum told my siblings and that we were going to start going there, I detested. The thought of it made me angry, especially because of the Church's denomination (branch of Christianity).
We went that Sunday and my life changed. The Holy Spirit filled the room, and the songs of worship and praise they sang were beautiful. I still remember one the songs we sang because I fell in love it. It is called: At Your Name (Yahweh Yahweh), and I have linked at the bottom of the page.
God-Almighty was changing my life and softening my heart. I stilled listened to the world, but I enjoyed going to Church and singing songs of praise and listening to the Pastor.
After I turned 21, God wanted me to know Him more. For the first time in years I picked up my Bible and read it. I think Leviticus was the first Old Testament book I read and the Gospel according to Matthew was the first New Testament book. I found it genuinely pleasurable because I had never read it before with the intention of wanting to know God.
Don't get me wrong, I still make mistakes but what God teaches us is that we cannot be perfect. Jesus is the only one who can be perfect. His sacrifice was perfect and because of that, we get to know God the Father.
There will always be someone in the Bible that we can relate to because God knows all that we are and all that we can do. And might I add, the Bible is very interesting because, from the book of Genesis (The first book of the Bible) to Revelation (The last book of the Bible), it is all about Jesus.
I am not perfect but Jesus heals me and His Holy Spirit makes me want to do good.
If you feel lost, or you feel like giving up, Christ gives hope. Titus 3:7 (CEV) says, "Jesus treated us better than we deserve. He made us acceptable to God and gave us the hope of eternal life."